The weirdest thing to me is how someone can want something so wrong…yet be so afraid of it at the same time. I understand to an extent. Everyone wants to be thrilled. We love that feeling we get inside that makes us feel more alive. It breaks up the monotony of everyday life.
But when that thrill becomes too real for us, we become frightened and afraid. For example, imagine really loving the thrill of being on a roller coaster. Enjoying the ride, loving the drop in your stomach as you take a fall…and then something wrong or unexpected happens. You are then scarred from a thrill you once sought out.
Applying that same logic to submitting to me. It’s a thrill to do it in spurts of fantasy. To live your moment of submission but being too afraid to go beyond because you don’t want to be scared. Or maybe you are fearful of going too deep. You are so scared of losing all that you currently enjoy in your life (or so you believe.)
In your heart of hearts, you know you want to completely submit yourself to me. You want to be that submissive I describe in my clips. You want me to completely own and control you. You want to be in service to me as your Master.
Yet you hesitate. You let your ego get in the way. You have managed to create negative feedback on the idea of complete submission and loyalty to me. You lie and deceive for no reason at all. You’ve become this type of person without even noticing it.
You think this is of no consequence because hey…it’s just online. You don’t have to deal with me face to face. You can go and leave as you please (or so you believe.) But, let me take a moment to bring some things to light for you.
YOU ARE GOING TO DIE. Yes, in case you didn’t know it. One day you are going to perish from your physical form. Whatever you believe happens to you once you die is your business. But the absolute truth is that someway, somehow…you are going to kick the bucket. And what a shame it would be to be on your last breath regretting never doing all that you wanted to do.
To gasp for air as you are about to leave knowing you missed out on the ultimate experience of being my subordinate. Of existing just to service my needs and wants. To be my loyal dog at my feet. Wouldn’t this be a shame? Of course.
And the worst part would be simply because you were too afraid to push yourself further. Too scared to live a life of real purpose. Too frightened to release yourself from the bonds of your ego that only hold you back. You will never find the enlightenment that way. NEVER.
You need to live in the moment. Take opportunities as they come. Stop saying no and start saying yes. Even if it scares you, just do it. Don’t be a coward always worried about this and that. Take a deep breath, calm yourself, and throw caution to the wind.
I got a pretty fun call today. I always love when guys call me with really creative and fun things to talk about/do. It breaks up the monotony of the other boring bitches who lack the brains for stimulating conversations and interactions.
There is nothing more BORING and annoying than a guy who just gets on the phone and says, “humiliate me.” Like, I don’t know shit about you…how do you expect me to humiliate you? I guess they just want regurgitated lines of common bratty humiliation or something. I don’t bend to those requests because logically, it makes no sense to me.
And before I get into the story, I’m going to vent for a bit. If you are calling me on Niteflirt, have something to discuss AND engage in the conversation. If we are doing a roleplay participate. I swear sex must suck with whomever poor girl does it with you guys. Most of you are boring, useless idiots and it shows, LOL.
But anyway, I got an entertaining call today from a guy that just didn’t give a fuck. I love subs like him because they care about having fun in their fetish. This guy wanted me to say freaky things over speakerphone while he was getting fast food at Mcdonalds.
Now at first, I didn’t believe he was ACTUALLY going to do this. I thought we were just role-playing it out. But no, this guy was in the drive-thru lane of Mcdonalds. The whole fantasy is he was getting food for me and the guy’s cock he is sucking who is back at my place with me. So, I was telling him what we wanted via speakerphone, but also saying things like “hurry up bitch so you can get back and suck this DICK.”
So, if you know the process of getting fast food at Mcdonalds, it’s usually first window, pay and then pick up food. At every point, I was shouting obscene things, and the employees could hear me as he is doing the order. Needless to say, this was funny as hell. I wish I could see the reactions of the employees as he did this (he did it three times by the way.)
He says next time he is going to film himself doing this. I hope to see it if he does. This is what a fun call is! Take note guys.
My birthday is on September 17th! I am working on something special for ALL my fans. It will come out on September 17th so you can celebrate with me. I can’t wait to reveal this special birthday surprise for you all.
I would love for you to send me a gift. It will put a big smile on my face. You can go to my wish-list here.